Me Ow

Come with me
My love
To the sea
The sea of love

I want to tell you
how much
I love you

Do you remember
When we met
That's the day
I knew you were my pet

I wanna tell you
how much
I love you

Come with me
My love
To the sea
The sea of love

I wanna tell you
How much
I love you

I'm Finding Out True Love Is Blind

WHAT THE HELL.
I don't know what I'm feeling or what I want tonight.
I've never felt that fluttering feeling...

Wind you up and make you crawl to me
Tie you up until you call to me
-Louis XIV

Guess What Movie Watched Today...

Funeral Blues

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

-W.H. Auden

Yeesh

I see this man everywhere I feel. Today I walked into the bank and there he is sitting in a chair by the door by himself. Every time I see him and looks at me with such a blank expression. He's always alone, middle-aged, not bad looking. Just looks confused I guess. Still, I don't like how much I see him in Bedford seems like kind of a creeper, haha.

Today I'm going to hangout with Katie probably for the last time. I don't know why I feel nothing about this. Maybe it isn't registering or maybe I just don't care. Just 4 more days...


Deprive me of the salt, the sea
My uptake by waves,
That comforting home,
Won't wash over me.
No purifying foam.
Just a twist and a turn
Of my spirit again
Error will stay with me now
As the third take echoes sin

Maybe

Third day and I'm already losing interest in this. I seem to be losing interest in a lot of things lately.

I wish I had something to do besides shop. I guess I do tonight, Jill's party, but I'm not sure if I even feel like going. But I should, i will, i don't know. Honestly whenever I try to go out and do things I end up feeling depressed. I try to hangout with Jake because we have fun and I know he'll still be kind of close if I ever really need him but it's still going to be hard to say goodbye. As for everyone else I haven't been making much of an effort. The time has just gone by too fast. I just wish I could put summer on repeat.

Yes

For some reason today I understand myself completely. Unfortunately what I have come to understand is that I am not ready. That I'm unopen to change and i posses a weak mind. And I wonder now if everyone else is ready for this. Or are they just faking it like I am?